Catch up...Ketchup...Catsup?

Well well well. A lot has happened and it's not entirely necessary to write it in here, but I find it almost therapeutic (spelling?) to get it all out.

Christmas was good. Not much to say about it. It hasn't FELT like Christmas for several years now, perhaps having to do with gramma dying...but I'm not entirely sure. I got a digicam, which I needed and wanted desperately. So that was nice.

Jacob came here for new years! He arrived the 28th and stayed til the 1st of January. I was soo nervous when I went to the airport to meet him. I was shaking and felt nauseus and like I was going to pass out. And then I finally saw him. It was strange at first...to see someone you've only seen pictures of and then being able to see the entirety of them..with a moving face and everything. :) We were both shaky and nervous and after a nice long hug, went to baggage claim...holding hands. :) I think it was a little weird for both of us at first.

We went to San Marco to get coffee and wait to meet mom for lunch at Cafe Carmon. The lunch was full of mom questioning Jake, and I'm sure he was nervous as hell. But overall I think it went very well. Mom liked him; he liked mom (i think). Then after that we went to Hanna Park Beach and sat on a blanket in the cold wind and also put our feet in the freezing water, and we talked too.

That night we went out to dinner at a Sushi place with some of his friends he knows here in town. They had fun talking; I had fun listening and observing. After dinner we went to one of the guy's house to hang out. It was a good first day.

Then saturday there was some drama with my family because I didn't get home til late the previous night, so my dad was upset. But it got semi cleared up and then I went to get Jake from his hotel. There was also a lot of drama with Kelsey, but I won't go into that. Jake and I had a late lunch and talked a bit before we went to dinner at my house with my family. I was nervous that dad would be crazy, but he wasn't. He was pretty congenial and talked the WHOLE night. Then we played Taboo. Mom and dad was one team, then david and daniel, then me and Jacob. It was fun. It's always good to interact with people; you can usually see their true colours that way. That was a pretty good second day.

Sunday was supposed to be OUR DAY to just be together and not have plans with anyone else. We originally planned a picnic and then dinner out that night and then go somewhere for new years eve. But the drama with kelsey made things weird and we ended up going to see her for coffee that afternoon. I didn't like that she was stealing my Jacobtime, but it was better to do it then instead of monday, his last day. :/ So we went to see her at Starbucks in San Marco and hung out at the gazebo. Apparently they both thought of eachother as boring.

After that Jake and I went back to the hotel to get ready for our dinner. We went to Maggianos at the St. Johns Town Center, and it was AMAZING. The place is so nice. There was a live jazz group playing, there were decorations for the new year, the service was amazing, the food was superb, and there was a complimentary chocolate bar in the back banquet hall. We had wine with our food, and had lots of leftovers to take home. It was a little strange for me because I've never had a date like that, nor have I been treated or spoiled that way. It was different, but I liked it. :)

We left and sat on some benches outside. I had mentioned wanting a balloon because there were a ton just floating on the ceiling, but i didn't intend on actually getting one. But Jake went in and got two, one for him and one for me. :) It was very, very sweet. We walked around the mall and talked and such. Then took our doggy bags to the hotel and decided to go downtown to the Landing to watch fireworks.

Even though I've lived here all my life, I've never been downtown during new years. So I naturally didnt' realize how amazingly crowded it would be. Plus there was a game going on that I didn't know about that weekend, so there were a lot of West Virginia people there. It was crazy tring to park and going up there we found out it was 21 up (it usually isn't) and I am only a wee 19 y/o. :(

So we went down the riverwalk and there was literally NO place to sit to watch fireworks. We finally got down to the small gazebo place past Times Union and sat on some steps waiting for the new year. It honestly wasn't the ideal situation because we both get weird in crowds and I was feeling slightly frantic about finding a place to settle down before it was 12:00...we were pushing it and probably got there like 15 til. But it ended up being really fun and the fireworks were great. I almost burnt my boob with my cigarette, but I was okay. ;) It was so good to bring in the new year with someone I love. After midnight we kissed, and it was perfect. :D

After it was over we waited til most of the people cleared out and went to the hotel to talk and such. I ended up sleeping over. I know my parents didn't like it, but it was soo nice to sleep in Jacob's arms. So peaceful. I loved it. A PERFECT third day.

Monday we sort of slept in, and he checked out of the hotel. We went to my house to heat up our leftovers and eat them for lunch. My dad was acting a little weird which I thought was due to me sleeping over, but it was mostly some stress with work shit. We ate and then went to Stockton Park and just laid there in the grass. I was cranky that day, so I'm sure I wasn't the nicest person to be around. Plus I was realizing that he was leaving that night.

We got a call from mom saying how she wanted to hang out with Jake a little bit more before he left, so we went back home and he got to talk with her for maybe an hour and a half. Then we had to leave for the airport. I didn't realize how much traffic there would be, but apparently all the West VA people were going back home, so there was some stress on the way to the airport in addition to when we got there. Jake was a little anxious. While he was checking his bag, I started to get teary eyed, but I held it back. And once he was at the security checkpoint, where we had to say goodbye, I just started bawling into his shirt. I didn't want to say goodbye, I didn't want him to leave, I didn't want to be without him. I made him cry too...we were a sight.

Before he came out, I was so scared that our feelings would change for the worst and that he'd would think I was ugly and stupid and lame and that he'd run away from me. But his coming here only made us realize how very much we love eachother. That we both think of eachother as attractive, intelligent, funny, and amazing. I don't exactly agree that I'm those things, but I'm working on that part. We are in love...and it's the best feeling in the world.

(Jake called and now it's too late to finish this.)

To Be Continued...